An Apology

I’m sorry for being so angry with you of late. To be honest, I had felt let down and betrayed. Things were going so well in training, but I realize now that I bit off more than I could chew. You were crying out for a long time, but I ignored you. Until finally, something that we could have worked out in the short-term progressed and ballooned into a long-term/life time issue that we will need to work through together. Communication will need to work both ways from now on. I need to be more receptive to your needs. We cannot continue to grind ourselves into the ground, but need to learn the importance of balance, self-care, and rest. Please forgive me, as this will take me some time to learn the intricacies of your needs. But we can get through this together, as long as I can remain patient and above all, grateful for all that you’ve allowed me to achieve. Let’s keep pushing our limits, in a new and safe way that leaves us both feeling rejuvenated and ready to take on the next adventure. And thank you for this sign that you are ready to let me try by giving me that wonderful 4 miles through our local trails this past weekend. I truly needed it – even if I don’t deserve it from you just yet.

I love you.